how complicated ?!

hey guysss,
Today I want to present you a really interesting book which is called The Rules.
It explains how you need to treat a guy, so you dont get hurt.
funny right?
well first I thought I am good at what I am doing and that I dont need this book, however now tbh i really want this book ..
I got hurt quite a lot and why ? because i was "too easy"
We think that when we play the hard to get game that we shouldnt, but thats wrong, since we always need to play a game, love is a game and you cant win a man´s heart without playing the game.
Well I dont do this I am always to nice, I am quite often the first one who writes and who talks so that needs to change.
first rule is never call or text him first.
second, dont try to change him or tell him what to do, be honest but always misterious.
third, dont talk to much.
and obviously take him take the lead.
I mean yes it sounds dead easy, but it isn't!!!
the important thing for me in this case is that I should just think, If i dont write him and he doesnt write me, well then he is not interested ;)
have that in mind! dont pressure him, coz if not he will go away and leave you, so if he writes then give him misterious answers and pretend to be busy and leave yourself time to respond ( i know its hard) , and if he doesnt write and tries to get your heart well then ADIOS DUDE.
We girls/ woman were born to be beautiful. We are the ones who need to be well treated, so if we dont leave them do this then they get disinterested. I mean they love football, basketball and all those GAMES so remember they want a challenge ;)
I mean hello? EASY COME AND EASY GO ;)
So for me I just learned that definitely I am not going after him, and if he is not coming after me than he can kindly forget me :)
He can be the love of my life but I need to be the love of his life and thats the important thing ;)
so girls if you read this then you might wanna get the "girls bible" the rules.
I am going to buy it and study it, it might sound psycho, but girls, we are psychos so dont be ashamed, we all have read this book, nobodys is an expert without training and its natural so dont worry :)
This was it for today I hope you liked my post and thought it was interesting :)
xoxo Cati
Oh and girls if he writes and says something to you in a ignoring way then dont answer! never! never!

why ?

my life is like a television series.
one day everything seems normal and the next everything falls apart.
I dont know why it seems that it just happens to me, but it does, i cant understand why ...
I gave you all my trust, i told you what i feel, i didnt say i love you, but that i had feelings for you and you did say the same.
Now you said u cant continue like that, but continue with what? we barely dont speak to each other, only via whatsapp and not even that kinda..
and now you´re telling me you that "you think" you dont have feelings for me ?! what shall i say...
first you´re telling me this via whatsapp and i mean ur telling me this now.. like i have fucking booked the flights to only visit you ive planned everything and now youre telling me this.
i mean of course i understand that ur confused, i mean i am too, but i didn´t expect from especially you to be able to hurt me like that.
i know that we are not only friends, we are more and everyone knows that so don´t deny it and say that you don´t have feelings for me, i cant understand this..
I really cant.
your cati

Ps: if you will read this then think twice before you say something
the important thing ive learned from this is 1. its good that ive started the convo and said what i felt and said the truth and 2. that you are still not ready. and 3. that i should have fun tonight and don´t look at my phone if you have said something i really "don't care".

those bad days..

first of all , i dont really know how to start ..
today was the 30. april, actually a totally normal day...
however today i learned a really important thing..
you cant always be nice and kind to people who wont be the same to you..
i am just in some aspects really naive and think that u would do the same for me like i would for you.
i helped u so much and so many times and you seriously didn´t and just now, after a lot of times i realized that i cant continue like that coz its me who suffers.
secondly, i gave you J my trust in a certain way  which i never gave someone..
you were the first and after 5 or 6 years we still feel the same things for each other ..
its weird coz i thought that feelings disappear, but they didn't. when your not here i miss you and its different obviously but when your here i just want to touch you the whole time and be with you .
tomoro is ur last way and then we wont see each other for ages..
i hope so badly that i can come to your b-day and make u a surprise... we will see..
all in all i realized that everything HAPPENS FOR A REASON
trust me EVERYTHING ..
more and more i see that god is on our side and does only want the best for us.
also i more and more see who my real friends are and who i´m becoming, an adult, a girl who knows what she is capable of and who she really is.
added to that i love joana, my best friend she is the one i can call , don't need to talk a lot and understands me right away so that i feel much better right away..
who really surprised me this year was my mate yannik.. he is in

my school , in my class and i trust him a lot. Obviously he has his bad sides, but at the end of the day he always asks me how i am when i am bad and he listens to me and helps me in every situation.. i thought he was a little immature at first, as he is in my age and boys are normally a little different in the way of thinking in comparison to the girls in the same age, but he really knows a lot and is an amazing friend .
by dear readers soon i will post more xx

feelings for a boy

today is a tipical sunday,
after a night out i start to think a lot about things which happened in the week.
sundays are just those days which I never liked and never will like, they just make me feel sad, because i basically dont do anything and need to study, and this combination is awful.
well lets begin..
this is my first post so dont take judge me right away...
well.. this last weeks have been really hard for me, as i knew i had to give u space and dont talk to you anymore. i don't know why i´m so sad about giving you space if its actually for our own god, however i cant just sit here and don´t do anything and see you having fun and me thinking bout you everyday..
its so hard to not think about you to see you online and knowing you might be talking to someone new who you might even like more than me. i really don't know if you ever liked me, i guess you didn't and i am pretty sure about that because it was my fault that we kissed and it was my fault that we actually started this all.. i was just to much into the idea having the perfect boyfriend..
first i thought i didn't like you that much but more and more i only thought about you i did so much for you .. i could show you so many proves that you are the one i really like.. the thing is i don´t have to prove you anything now because you dont even care for me you were able to get further in comparison to me.. maybe its because you´re not that sensitive like me .. to be honest i thought it was the best idea to fight for you but the sentence "i want space until i don´t feel anything anymore" scares me . on one side the sentence says : we both dont work so bye dont wanna see you anymore , and on the other side the sentence says : prove to me that we both work so that i don't need to forget you and don´t have feelings for you anymore. why is it so hard ?! i´m so dead confused and just want to know what to do.. well my head says i should just leave you and continue in front but my heart says that we are special and that i should fight for you . but i guess you are still a little to young for me , the part that you didnt want to talk about our problems in person showed me that it wasn´t that important for you... i mean if it was than u would have fought for me right..
to be honest i cant be bothered to analyse this anymore, i guess this just complicates it all, but im sure about one thing. until today i never liked someone so much i know it sounds weird but its true....
this was a long explanation about my love life, so soon i will try not to explain so much bout it too step by step forget you too..